Thursday, August 09, 2007,12:46 AM
haiz....i dun wanna blog actually...but...i dunno...
well....i woke up yesterday(...since itz past midnite)...with a sudden jolt...my sis suddenly shouted in my room...asking me to get up...so i did...thinking that i was gonna be late fer sch or sumtin..then i took a peek thru the window at it's still dark sia....doesn't look like as if i was late or sumtin...and so i checked my fone...it was 4.17am!!!!pFft...then i noticed...my sis was sobbing while she was leading me downstairs.... it got my imagination running wild....then she went inside nenek's room...then...i saw nenek's body lay motionless...she's nt even breathing...even without my specs...i cud see dat her body is juz nt moving.....my nitemares came thru....sis was weeping all the way...ibu just standing still like me while looking at nenek...while ayah was checking for pulse....then ayah kissed nenek's head....and helped closed her eyes...my sleepy eyes suddenly got all teary...but i was fine....kakak then went upstairs to her room...and when i followed suit...she was still crying....i cud hear her weeping even with her doors closed...as i went to my room and lay on my bed...i stared the ceiling, wishing i was juz having another nitemare...i juz cudn't shut my eyes...even the urge to slp,went away...instead...my eyes went all teary again... then i recalled...hw she took care of me and all when i was young...buying for me toys...feeding me....and hw i wud hold her hand when i accompany her to the shop...=(
then i recalled...when i was in pri sch...when i had saved enuf money frm my pocket money, i wud give her 2 bucks...she wud smile and praise me ..saying i'm a gd saver..and wud grow up with a reasonable sum of money in da bank....i can never 4get her smile....i even remember i used to cuddle up to her when i slept at nite when i was younger...her warm hugs...haish...
despite all the hopes and wishes of her death was juz another nitemare, it wasn't...itz real.... :_(
ayah then asked to and sis to bathe and watch over nenek's body...saying some prayers...bt the mre i sat there and prayed for her....the mre memories of her went thru my mind...those which i spent with her...can neva forget them...can neva forget her cooking b4 she was bedridden...and cud neva 4get her...she was a great granny...a nice and kind one..i was sumhw glad i managed to see her b4 she was cover with a white cloth and buried...
even so....when i went to sch today( i had to.. coz i had to do the MOL revision, which those whu dunno....dat server can only be accessed in sch...)...i dun really have the mood to talk to my fwens la....but...cannot help it la....they always cheer me up la....itz their nature...hahakz...
well...ya...all plans to the gym, cancelled....the compro stage 3 wasn't done...coz after sch...rushed home....even sOo...cudn't see to the burial of nenek's body....sad la seh...i wished i cud have skipped sch...and able to carry nenek's body to her final resting place....but...cudn't help it...then when i got back....kakak told me zaid came in the morning...and he helped carry the body...haish...so gd sia....jc and all schs EXCEPT poly had half-day...thus he finished sch in tym to help....well...thx aniwae aite zaid....
blabLaBLA.....
anywayz...got home, saw lotza cuzzens and relatives frm both paternal and maternal side of da family....the hse cramped sia...even when it's an executive mansionatte....whoa...think daddy and mummy upragade to a bigger hse....bunglow maybe??rofl...xD
well....on 2nd tot, no use getting a bigger hse with 1 lesser person gone...haish...missing her even mre la nw....man...
btw...itz nw past midnite and itz 9th August...HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!! aite guys...enjoy...
no mood to watch fireworks la seh.....actually...arnd sumtym ago..when i was with her....i planned to watch with her...but things juz didn't go as planned...so nw..to HER....if u're sumhw reading diz...enjoy it aite...i knw u love fireworks...=)
as for the rest...njoy urselves too and have a gd short break(for non-poly students)...
till nxt tym..
